Cup of tea with Aisha

 Assalamu aleikum dears :) how's your weekend going? I have had a nice day, alhamdulillah. I went to pick one dress from FB Marketplace with my hubby, then we went for a walk, we watched one series ('From' on Netflix, can't wait to finish it) and then he picked some sambusas for me and went to see his friend. I have been just chilling here home the evening, made a cup of coffee (yes, no tea for long time! What is going on..) and now I got some inspiration to write to you, dear readers. How have you been? ... I used to have some sort of vision when I was younger. I changed a lot as a person when I got ill.. it was one time I spent in hospital, almost seven months. I used to be proud to be different and I was kinda wild and free. After my illness took the best of me, I became much more shy and reserved. I have still kinda grown out from that too and I would describe myself more as a calm person nowadays. I used to be an addict and a criminal, living somewhat outside of so

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears.. how are u doing? I have hard time to put my thoughts together. Finland has been claimed to be the happiest country of the world, once again.. and yesterday we had a really sad incident where a 12 year old shot his class mates, ended up killing one and two of the victims are in a critical state. When I think of this, I can't help but thinking too that also, same time in another part of the world adults, note, adults, are killing kids this age and even babies. They have said now that the shooter's motive was bullying. It is a huge problem and in the end it comes to the very point of why we have bullying, racism, islamophobia, homophobia, transphobia, addictions, violence.. When people can't tolerate other people and let them be how and who they are. Some people have actually the power to decide on other people's lives. Or, they take so called justice in their own hands and do something that can never ever be undone. I

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullah :) how are you today? A bit better day now alhamdulillah. I talked about the problems yesterday with my friends, mom and my spouse and I feel more light now. I do overthink, and I had stumbled in my own feet.  Today I just have cleaned home, and a home appliance guy came to check our oven. It turned out it actually heated itself every time to 300 Celcius so, alhamdulillah I haven't gone mad or lost my cooking skills :D I was wondering why the oven seems to be working with turbo power and everything just burns. Well, the fixer guy will order a new thermostat for it in sha Allah and I will be able to make and bake foods.. in sha Allah. ... I have some alone time before my husband comes from work so I will listen surah ad Dhuha and work on memorizing it. Like I told in my post yesterday, this Ramadan hasn't gone at all like I planned, but I want to make some effort and learn at least something new which I can keep with me the next year. What goals

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh dears :) how's the week started? Today I was at work, fixed one issue and went to spend some quality time with my friend. I have had some challenges lately so it was good to just be at ease in a good company, alhamdulillah.  This Ramadan is really different.. first week I was on antibiotics, then fasted two days and became sick again.. tomorrow I start fasting again in sha Allah. It will be difficult, but needed. I'm going to wake up early in sha Allah and have a productive day and try to heal my soul.. ... Yeah, life is not easy and things will always go up and down. I hope you all are alright though. I think this is just because I have been sick, and at home so much, that I have lost myself temporarily. I need to do the things that make me feel happy, instead of worrying about laundry and dishes. And instead of the constant worrying about all kinds of things. Sometimes I just feel that I'm so different than others.. am I real

 Assalamu aleikum again dears :) how are you today? I have woken up at 3.35, made some porridge for us with my favorite toppings: butter, strawberry jam and slices of banana. Alhamdulillah. I'm still not fasting due to the antibiotics so I try to make the most of it. Cooking and cleaning, making laundry etc. can be ibaadah with a right intention. I think it's nice to wake up with my spouse and we have a small moment together before he goes to work. I want to take good care of him, and even though he helps at home and can make his own breakfast, I want to do it for him. It's an act of gratitude, he loves me so I want him to really feel I love him too. Wow, that went deep quickly :) I feel almost as I would have been up all night so it always affects the way I write. I actually wanted to start by saying, Hong Kong, Singapore, Bangladesh, I see you :)) These are new countries I've spotted in the statistics. Thank you for reading, and thank you for everyone else too. I have

 Assalamu aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh everyone :) how are u doing? It's here :) The moon has been sighted and the blessed month of Ramadan has started. Alhamdulillah :) I feel so excited and happy. I can't start fasting yet, but I try to engage in reading Qur'an (from a phone app), making dhikr and du'aa and do some sadaqah too in sha Allah. I also want to read a book that I haven't take time to read in a long time, "Secrets of Divine love" by A. Helwa. In sha Allah. It's good to take some time off social media and take more time for learning and reflecting. Ramadan is not only for fasting, it's a time to cleanse our hearts, connect to our souls, remember those who have less, and most of all, remember and praise our Maker, Allah subhana wa ta'ala. It's not for feasting every night and wasting food, or a diet on the other hand. Lots of blessings and forgiveness will be showered upon us, if we stay patient and humble. In sha Allah. I